This Is Our Story: February 2012

Messages...

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 2:00 AM

Hmm..

Today you seems to reply my msg faster than usual.. :)

But..i just wonder..

Why between 6pm - 1am you cannot reply my msg?

Is it really that busy?

Or..you know what i'm thinking off...

Really don't understand how could someone just forget just like that?

How come i don't have that type of brain?

Or maybe..PTSD?

Then i don't have to face all this things...

I really really hope that someday..

Some miracle will happen..

Love you...

Rascal Flatts - My Wish

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 6:49 PM

I hope that days come easy and moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

More then anything, more then anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it,
To your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more then you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more then you take.

Oh More then anything, Yeah, and more then anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it,
To your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more then you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

Worried Sick..

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 1:14 AM

Why must i always worried about you?

Why??

What happen to myself?

I really don't know..

Why everything is you first?

Why everytime people ask about you I don't know what to answer?

Or i create a lie...

I really want to live like a normal person..

With someone that love me till the end..

Will you be that person?

I doubt so...

But..

I'm waiting for miracle..

For the time that you might be back for me...

I know I'm stupid...

Everyone ask to let go...

Yet i still can't do it...

DEAR!!! Where are you????

I'm worried...

****************************

Just receive your msg that you are on the way home..

I wonder what have you been doing all these while..

Everyday work until so late?

Yum cha? Drinking?

Hmm..No matter what you do...

Just be careful k..

Also, to who you are with..
Take care of dear k..

Missing you....

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 9:53 PM

Now i only truly understand the meaning of missing someone..

Before sleep...need to know that they already reach home safely...

During sleep...will dream everything that we do previously together...

Wake up from sleep...realise that it's just a dream..everything back to what had happened..

Check phone and itouch...no message..no call...

Missing you is really difficult...

This is much tougher than i thought it will be...

I didn't know that i love you that much...

Every moment..

I will think what you are doing..

How are you......

Say to stop every single communication with you...

I can't do it..

Even i know..

Something are lies..

I still tend to believe it... :(

I just want to hear your voice...

Knowing that you still care..

Is enough....

Today you talk to me..

Also thought me to play Triple Town...

you told me that you like the present..

But you haven't see the album yet..

Not sure about the letter and email...

I know i must be crazy...

But i really want you to know that..

I really care for you..

Someone told me that it's not worth it to wait for you..

Even if you really come back..

Is it worth it?

Will you still be the same?

Should i keep you?

Without hesitate..

In my heart..i answer..yes i do...

They said...

You can do it one time..

You will do it second time..

But still...

I'm waiting..

Hoping for miracle to happen..

I just need someone that really love me for who i am...

I know..

If i love you more than you love me..

I will be very difficult...very sanfu...

People say being love is better than to love...

But no one love me...

I only can love you...

Take care my dear...

KISS - because I'm a girl (english sub)

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 12:10 AM

Kiss - Because I'm a Girl Korean lyrics and translation

Dodeche ar suga obso namjadurui maum
wonhar ten onjego da juni ije tonande
ironjog choumirago nonun thugbyorhadanun
gu marur midosso negen hengbogiosso

I just cant understand the hearts of men
they tell you they want you and then they leave you
this is the first time, you're special
I believed those words and I was so happy

marur haji guresso nega shirhojyoda go
nunchiga obnun nan nur bochegiman hesso
norur yoghamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya
sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika

you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
since I am a girl, to whom love is everything

modungor swibge da jumyon gumbang shirhjungnenunge
namjara durosso thollin mar gathjin anha
dashinun sogji anhuri maum mogo bojiman
todashi sarange munojinunge yoja ya

i heard that if you give up things too easily
to a man, he will get bored with you
i don't think this is wrong
a girl says that she will never be fooled again
but she will fall in love again

marur haji guresso nega shirhojyodago
nunchiga obnun nan nur boche giman hesso
norur yoghamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya
sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika

you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
since I am a girl, to whom love is everything

[narration] Onur urin heojyosso budi hengbogharago
noboda johun sarammannagir barandago
nodo darun namjarang togathe nar saranghanda go marhanten onjego
sorjighi na nega jar doenungo shirho
naboda yepun yoja manna hengboghage jar sarmyon otohge
guroda nar jongmar ijoborimyon otohge
nan irohge himdunde himduro juggenunde
ajigdo nor nomu saranghanunde

[narration]
Hey babe
the pain
it's not enough to describe how i feel
we were so happy together
but I know now
I've been blind
you told me that you'd never let me down
whenever I needed you you'd always be here
I can forgive but I cant forget
even though you hurt me
I still love you
I still love you

sarangur wihesoramyon modun da har su inun
yojaui chaghan bonnungur iyong hajinun marajwo
hanyojaro theona sarangbadgo sanunge
irohge himdurgo oryourjur mollasso

don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love
and her caring instinct
i didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard
although i will curse you i'll still miss you
since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
although i will curse you i'll still miss you
since i am a girl, to whom love is everything

Narration (Guy, only in the music video)
There's someone I'm in love with...
Although I can't be with her now...
I'm still in love with her...

I think you practising this song..

But for who i don't know...

I tried asking you..

But you say no.....

Loving you is tough...

Leaving you is much more difficult..

I'm happy that you initiate to msg and play games with me today..

Thanks my dear...

Girls...

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 11:51 AM

Too tired yesterday..

Come home check facebook sleep already..

Forget to blog... :P

Yesterday was really sad..

Know so much thing at one time..

Although i already have the feel,

But yet confirming it is really bad...

I was told to stop all communication with you...

but still i can't...

HOW?

I tried to msg you for the last time..

But end up you reply my msg really quick...

And also you denied all those things..

If it's really true, why scare to accept it?

Is it really like what they say?

You just put me as a backup...

Already get already one, don't need to care so much??

I really don't know what you thinking of..

You careful la...and good luck for today...

Chasing new girl..

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 1:05 AM

I today finally confirmed that you are chasing another girl..

But i got the wrong person..

Wondering who is this person now..

I got so upset that i hide in the toilet for hours...

Then rush out to meet you..

stuck in the jam for hours...

Just to meet you for less than 10 minutes...

I pass the presents that i prepared for you...

But you still don't have the time to open it yet...

You look angry..

I tried to make you happy...

Just smile alittle...

I'm really upset..

Is it I really need to let go now??

I thought i told myself that if you have another girlfriend then i will let go?

But how come now it turn out to be worst???

Why i always bluff myself that you will come back?

you will be better..

you will be change..

But you will just leave me there...

I'm sorry for the things that i did wrong..

Can we it make up again??

When you msg me tell me that tonight tetries if you back early...

I very happy..

I don't know...

What type of relationship we having now...

I really hope that you can help me up..

If you don't want me anymore, maybe can give me a big slap..

And wake me up from the dream that i have been dreaming together with you...

If you would like to continue our relationship, can you please tell me what i should do??

I'm sorry...

I really feel sorry... :(

Picture...

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 1:33 AM

"why this picture still here? you two together again??"

No...it's just that i don't feel like packing them up...

Or maybe i should..

So that i could let go?

Is it that way would be easier??

I think...

I'm the one that don't want to let go..

Say only want to let go...

But couldn't do it..

What can I do????

I really don't know...

Today you say hi to me again...

Maybe it's just a simple thing to you...
But i'm happy...

pure silliness...

I need to change my sleeping time back to normal..

Not healthy sleep so late and wake up so late..

What should i do!!!!!

5minutes seems like 30minutes...

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 12:10 AM

I talk to you today!

Don't know..

i called you close the phone...

i msg you an hour later..

you say eat thing..

2 hour later...

still eating thing...

But at least you call back :)

Hear your voice really feel it's back to last time..

Just that we have less things to talk..

A 5 minute call seems like 30 minutes long..

How come our distance become so far already?

You don't angry already la..

So long already...

Sorry..My dear..

I just hope that we can make up :(

When you are finally back..

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 1:08 AM

I finally tell that to you..

To request for a holiday..

To finally let you go...

I know I will not happy..

But i really need to do this..

It's been too long that i stay in this condition...

Really not happy...

Everyone also say the same thing..

But dear..

I will love you always..

No matter what happens...

I hope you can promise me this last wish..

Japan Day#9 : Back...

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 11:22 PM

Finally you coming back today...

Suppose to be landed already...

But msg you no reply..

How come you can don't care me? :(

How come he will msg me when i just post something at facebook and ask me what happen?

I want want is not his concern..

I want you to concern..

You really don't care about me already ma?

Really really sorry...

Japan Day#8 : Day2..Lost..

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 1:28 AM

Finally get to talk to you more today...

I wanted to don't talk to you for this last 2 days..

But i can't make it..

How to ask me don't contact you for the rest of my life?

People say must cut down all the contact so that can forget about you..

But how?

I really don't want to let you go...

Sorry...

I love you more than I know..

Japan Day#7 : GP Kobe.. U made it..

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 1:45 AM

You made it to day 2 without me..

Even got featured match...

Is it really..

I'm the one that making you bad this few years..

Everytime i go..

You sure didn't get it..

Or maybe once or twice..

Like game day and some other ptq ot gpt...

I miss you alot...

I ask whether can call you ornot..

You say cannot say expensive...

Use wifi no need money wan ma..

Dear a..

Really can't do anything le ma?

I really very tired le..

Sad sad..

Do so many things...

Nothing seems to work out..

Maybe people will say..

Love shouldn't think of any return..

But..

I need you...

Without you..

What i do also no use... :(

Good luck for tomorrow draft..

Japan Day#6 : Kobe..Snowing..

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 10:49 PM

Didn't heard from you since yesterday..

But saw some of your pictures..

Already in Kobe with slight now in Kyoto earlier is it?

So nice..

Finally get to see snow..

How i wish..

To be with you..

Maybe you don't remember le..

You say want to bring me see snow..

Go disneyland..

See fireworks...

When will we be there?

Or will this even happened??

Yesterday..I bought our airticket to Bali..

I wonder whether will this trip event take place??

Because its next year....

This year..also don't know how to continue yet..

Today I went alot place..

To pick up stuff for you..

First time..

I drive to so busy place..

So small lane..

No parking...

I hope you will like them...

I miss you..

Japan Day#5 : Kyoto.. Relax day...

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 11:17 PM

You say today no sightseeing..

Only relax...

As I told you..

I wanted to type DEAR!

You suddenly reply me in the afternoon..

Although only a few reply..

But also good..

Usually afternoon you didn't reply me..

But till night..

You didn't online le..

You ok ma?

Sleep d?

So fast..

Tomorrow friday le..

Alot things to do tomorrow..

Scare o..

Need drive far far..

After tomorrow...

We will see how it goes lo..

Love you dear..

Japan Day#4 : Kyoto... Plus crazy women...

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 11:17 PM

Back to no reply again...

Aiks..

Today heard from office that i'm "wu lei jin"..

Huhu..

I didn't lo..

People like me..

I can't stop them from messaging me..

And she pretend talk like me..

Which doesn't sound like me at all...

Omg..

Then say my ambition is to become a feng shui sifu..

Open feng shui shop..

Does she knows what she's saying after all?

Does she really know me??

Don't even have that in my list...

Really good imagination...

Plus she says that she knows me very well..

From a friend..

Unknown friend..

I wonder who is that..

Her invisible friend I guess...

How come got such person on earth???

Spoil my image... :(

Already not happy..

Somemore give people say like that...

Huhu...

*************

Just finish typing this..

Then you reply d..

Say want sleep d..

Tired...

Good night my dear..

Japan Day#3 : Valentine's Day

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 7:56 PM

I bought something for you..

But don't know whether I should give you ornot...

Hmm..

Think think...

Do you still love me?

I will always do..

***************

You just now wish me "Happy Valentines Day"

Happy :)

I not sure you use what type of thinking wish me that but I'm happy that you still remember to wish me..

Thanks dear...

Although i might not be ur valentine now..

Not beside me right now...

I know that you are having a great time..

I'm alone..

and I do care..

Hope you have fun..

Must take care..

Don't catch cold k...

王力宏 ~ 依然愛你 Yi Ran Ai Ni 官方完整版 MV

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 1:37 AM

Yi shan yi shan liang jing jing
Liu xia sui yue de hen ji
Wo de shi jie de zhong xin
Yi ran hai shi ni

Yi nian yi nian you yi nian
Fei shi jin zai yi zhuan yan
Wei yi yong yuan bu gai bian
Shi bu ting de gai bian

Wo bu xiang cong qian de zi ji
Ni ye you dian bu xiang ni
Dan zai wo yan zhong ni de xiao
Yi ran de mei li

Ri zi zhi neng wang qian zou
Yi ge fang xiang shun shi zhong
Bu zhi dao hai you duo jiu
Suo yi yao rang ni dong

Wo yi ran ai ni
Jiu shi wei yi de tui lu
Wo yi ran zhen xi
shi shi ke ke de xing fu
Ni mei ge hu xi
Mei yi ge dong zuo
Mei ge biao qing
Dao zui hou yi ding hui
Yi ran ai ni

Wo yi ran ai ni
Huo xu shi ming zhong zhu ding
Duo nian zhi hou
Ren he ren dou wu fa dai ti
Na xie shi guang shi wo zhe yi bei zi zui mei hao de
Na xie hui yi
Yi ran wu fa wang ji

Wo yi ran ai ni
Jiu shi wei yi de tui lu
Wo yi ran zhen xi
shi shi ke ke de xing fu
Ni mei ge hu xi
Mei ge dong zuo
Mei ge biao qing
Dao zui hou yi ding hui
Yi ran ai ni

Ni mei ge hu xi
Mei yi ge dong zuo
Mei yi ge biao qing
Dao yong yuan yi ding hui
Yi ran ai ni

Japan Day#2 : Valentine's Day eve..

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 1:15 AM

Went and celebrate Yee Tieng's Birthday..

Was that forgetful until i realise tomorrow is Valentine's day..

Everyone ask me where are you..

Tomorrow go where celebrate..

Do what?

When want to get married?

I don't know how to answer :(

I msg you..

You didn't reply...

Maybe too busy..

Too tired..

Don't know..

What should i do tomorrow?

Suppose want to go your place..
But sis not free..

Will see how and arrange...

I really don't know what to do..

Everyone keep say same thing..

Let go...

Don't cry over a person that not worth you crying for..

Aren't you worth it??

Happy Valentine's Day...

I will always love you..

Japan Day#1

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 11:25 PM

Does this all really works?

Today you reply my msg early morning before and after you reach japan..

I very happy...

See you reach your destination safe and sound..

I sleep whole afternoon..

Trying to recover from the lack of sleep..

But.. I keep dreaming..

Everything is about you..

I can't differentiate which is reality and which is not...

I really want sot d..

I saw your pictures..

Showing sad sun, lonely fan, last trainmen..

What does all this mean?

Sad or happy?

I want to see your picture..

See you...

I can't help it but stay here...

You are at the place that we plan to go together..

So you need to enjoy for me also k..

I miss you ...

Phone call..

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 12:05 AM

I take out my handphone..

Want to call you once i reach room..

Then you call..

I very happy :)

But your tone..

Got abit weird weird..

Abit like stranger..

Don't know want to say what..

Don't know what you want to tell me..

But i really glad that you call..

It has been awhile since you last call..

I have been thinking the whole day..

How to meet up with you before you go japan..

How to call you..

What to say...

Will surely miss you alot..

But i guess..

This is also a good time for me to start let go...

To do what i have been left out for this few months..

Take good care my dear..

連詩雅 - ''I'm still loving you'' (喜愛夜蒲電影主題曲)

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 11:58 PM

When I close my eyes I think of you
And the times we've had been through
Even though we're far apart right now

I remember back when you were here with me
How you've made my world complete
But now I'm left alone

We talked about love and hope
Wishing we could start a life our own
I wish that I could live without you

[Chorus]
Why did you tear my heart apart
You said you'd love me from the start
All those painful things you've put me through
But I'm still loving you
I've tried to give my best to you
I don't deserve the things you do
Everything has gone to memories
I just wish I knew the truth behind the lies

Repeat Chorus

Words from the bottom of my heart..

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 11:52 PM

I really few this is so true.

By how i see how much time i spend for you..

And how much time you spend for me.

Already very clear...

How much I really mean to you..

I don't know whether you is purposely..

Or you really already let you...

I really don't understand...

I talk to Stefan today..

he told me alot logic..

Alot life stories...

To make me move forward..

He told me..

A happy me in half year or 1 year time..

Look back to the point of me now...

Will think i very stupid..

To waste time..

To waste tears..

And tears is for others..

Not for own sadness...

I know i can do better if i want to..

But i want you to come along...

If i can't bring you along..

What i can do?.

To continue on without you...

I know it will not be easy..

But i really need to do so...

Leaving in so much pain..

Making others worried bout me..

I feel tired too..

I will continue love you...

I will..

I promise..

I will take care of myself..

Like what you ask me to..

I will try to not sad..

I will move on...

Take care my dear...

The Eagles- Heart of the matter (lyrics)

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 1:40 AM

Limits..

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 1:04 AM

Today we discuss about why i sad..

Mum ask several people to talk to me..

I wrote a message to mum...

Asking her not to worried bout me..

Telling her the truth what is happening..

Don't want her to ask here and there anymore..

I also discuss this with you..

And we discuss about ken..

How i only treat him as a good friends..

And where you set limit for opposite sex friends and where is my limit..

I then see where your point coming from..

We are really different people..

From different perspective..

Yet... I still love you :)

See you work so hard this few days...

Quite sad..see you so sanfu..

Work till midnite..

Reach home still need continue do...

And i can't do anything to help..

Coz you rushing all this work to go japan..

A place that you say you want to bring me go..

But now you going with your friends..

I wanted to book ticket and fly with you together..

But i scare my visa wont approve..

I don't have so much money in account..

And i not working..

Later japan people thought i go jump plane..

Wanted to give you surprise..

But i totally don't know your plans..

Where you stay and all..

What i can do?

Stay at home and wait you come back..

What should i do??

Lunch? Coffee Break??

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 3:19 AM

I waited for you whole afternoon..

I think of all the ways..

For you to come down..

For lunch...that you can't make it..

I still can turn back..

but i didn't...

I continue to come..

See you..at least a glimpse i also happy...

I reach there..

Walk walk..

Don't know how..

Think think..

Msg you..

You already back work..

And so busy..

Ask you come down for coffee break..
But you say you just make coffee..

Really sad that time...

Suddenly see tou you i very happy o...

Really glad that you come down and see me..

Somemore twice... :)

Somemore want cheng me drink caramel..

Thank you for sharing time with me even when you are so busy..

Sorry o..

You need work till so late..

4am like that o...

I really hope that we can do something about this...

No turning back..

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 10:41 PM

Really no way to turn back d ma?

How come even your sister also say i make the right choice?

I really don't know what i should do?

I don't want to let go...

But you don't seems to care...

6 years..

Is it that easy to let go?

I really don't understand...

I know you not good..

Yet i still want to stay..

Why i so stupid???

I think this is why people say..

Love is blind...

Boyfriend?

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 12:23 AM

Do you have a boyfriend?

Where is your boyfriend?

How are you and Kenneth?

When you getting Married?

Don't know why today they keep asking me this question...

I don't know how to answer :(

Can you teach me how?

I ask you..

You didn't answer me..

What you expect me to answer..

Can you tell me?

At least..

What you are thinking..

You left me guessing..

Really very tired... :(

:)

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 2:18 AM

Dear i miss you. :)

Today u ask me play tetris..

Happy..

Haha..

Sot d..

Simply things also happy..

Good night..

Yesterday edit picture until 5am so sleepy now..

為你寫詩KTV/Writing a poem for you KTV

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 2:58 AM

still remember you learn how to play piano ma?

the time we spend in DSA...

The message

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 1:02 AM

Will this be what you trying to say?

i really hope not.. :(

I resigned yesterday and today is my last day..

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 12:43 AM

One day notice?

I not sure whether she will pay my full pay or not..

I don't know i should sad or happy..

I want to talk to you..

But you always busy..

You say you got things to do..

But you post in facebook "combo king"

You playing tetris..

Is it talk to me also so difficult?

Today i talk to boss..

I really say everything out..

I wonder what boss will think of me after this..

I really don't know what i should do already..

I can't let go...

I can't continue..

Seeing you keep continue with your life..

Really don't know what i should feel... :(

Just be friends

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 12:20 AM

Words that i couldn't get it off my mind..

Why must i say out those words?

Why i don't take it back?

I don't understand why...

You can just leave me like that..

Don't care my msg and calls...

I just want to talk to you...

Hear you voice..

See what you are doing... :(

I'm really depressed..

I resigned as you wanted it...

But you are no longer here to accompany me through these...

I wonder

0 Thoughts Your's truly, KayCie at 1:39 AM

When i only can let go like you?

I wonder...

How come I cannot be stronger..

Keep thinking about the past..

Keep waiting for you to return to me..

I know the things will continue to repeat again..

yet i still want to be together with you again...

I already don't care face..

ask you..

Yet..

Still like this want result...

You going japan soon........

Going further away from me..

Huhu...

Please come back...

I really miss you...

Listen ...

Your's Truly

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