This Is Our Story

I'm thinking what you are what you are thinking of..

Sometimes you are worried...sometimes you seems to forget..

I not sure what you want and what to do with you..

Can you please tell me?

I'm worried...

I want to know your whereabouts...

But..you seems don't really care....

When i post i'm jealous of yeepeng's husband..

I'm really jealous...

Everytime i OT with Yee Peng, he sure will come and accompany Yee Peng..

Bring food for her...

Today..She ask for chocolate..

And he really come with chocolate...

He even help Yee Peng to do work and accompany her...

Makes me think...

What you really think of me?

What we are now?

Will you really appreciate what you have now?

Will you know what I want?

Will you care like that for me?

I'm sorry..

But i really need to make this clear...

Today is already the last day of 2011...

I want to make this right..

To know what you are thinking..

And what to do with next year..

I don't want to keep this hanging anymore...

I'm sorry that I can't give you more time..

This time are taking too much time...

I keep thinking about it...

At least if you want to let go..

I know how to do...

or at least if you want to get back together..

I know what to do...

Please...

And do appreciate the person that you want to stay with now...

NO matter who the person are...

I will be happy for you...

And thanks for being there for me throughout these years...

I always dream of this type of life...

What we always see in tv...

Fairytale story...

only that we didn't know each other when we are kids...

We started off very early...

Back in college...

We spend most of the times together..

We play the piano, sleep in dsa, do assignment in labs, play games etc...

I remember i thought you how to play a song that i don't know how to play...

We also like to spend time at Midvalley..

Just a few hours break..we can drop by there for a movie..

That makes my album full... :)

We are always in the same group...except for those that we cannot chose..

You will always take time to do the assignment..

While i wait for last minute..

You will accompany me do till midnight..

Even my thesis...

I do do do...till last minute..

I not sure where are you...

But i remember i sit alone at level 9..

I think its' exam time...

For experiment...

We think of all sorts of experiment at first..
But we ran out of idea very quickly...

Remember the one that we do in the small room..

So hot that we need to take fan...

So cold that one of our participants left...

Make it a variable that probably affect our result..

We do charity work..

We went to orphanages...spca...play with the kids and doggies...

We do marketing project..

We sell snacks in the class, herbal eggs, hotdogs..

Still remember Kahshuen say "Fresh hotdogs"

We also did some outdoor activities..etc...

We took all the same classes..throughout the 4 years..

Even when you initially plan to take computer games and design...

You ended up with Psychology...

Maybe this is something you miss you...

What you really like...

Some classes are really fun...like marketing class... we get to play with advertisements..

Some class is really strict.. like Ms Winnie's Class... "Question 1"

Some classes are really boring.. like the business management class..i forgot her name...and i sleep in her class...which is really bad..

You taught me to skip classes back in Foundation..haha...

We always go for Ali Maju,Lan Maju...

And also Siber...or the mix rice aunty..

Yum Yum...

Miss those food...

But for you now, should be abit sick of those food?

After 4yrs...u still need eat that food..haha..

We join the same club...

Arcades, Rotary... i can't remember others...

Only that you join Chess..i can't...

That's where i learn how to play chess...

Starting to get to know what is what...

You give up..and take up Magic again...

A game that make us travel here and there..

Subang, Central, Midvalley, EM, Ipoh, Singapore...

Everytime you join activities..

I will surely support you...

Maybe that's what my family always did to me..

Always support me..no matter where am i..

Also, we even founded our own club..Mindgames...

Travel to seapark to buy our games...

And now the games belongs to us...

Remember what kenneth phun say...

"There is a club like this previous..The games left together with the president"

Haha...Same goes with this president...

Then, we graduated..

Wear on our robes and mortar hat...

Took pictures and had dinner...

Head of to the working society...

We went to the same company for internship...

Mr Jim was kind enough to accept both of us..

Not sure whether he really need people or maybe we are just plain lucky..

We ended up working together...

Initially afraid of people knowing we are couple..

But somehow they knew it... :p

Working with Michael, Andy, Bruce, Gerald, Mandy and Siew Mei..

It's quite fun though...

Then, we came back for 3months or so..

When only finish exam few days...

We started working...with the term that he allow a 2 weeks off after that...

He again hired both of us...

In a week, we catch up a whole lot of things...

In a month, we both handle own project...

As times goes by, we ended up working later and later...

Still remember i ask Mr Jim when interview...Is the working time still the same?

He say " Yes yes..9-6...now better...we go back earlier...." Haha..

But before 6pm is working time...after 6pm is learning time...

But we also lucky, get to sit opposite each other...

Work in the same team...

Still remember how evelyn say us when we disagree on things?

She say "Aiyo, go home only argue..don't argue here..like husband and wife only"

Then, you have to follow boss out for Ambank...I follow Evelyn...

Not a bad experience...haha...

We also went holidays...

TO so many places... Ipoh, Pangkor, Melaka, Kuantan, Penang, Kedah..

Especially Genting Highlands...

seems to be our favourite spot...

You also brought me to the place where the animals i want to see to most stay...

Australia...Kuala Bear...and Kangaroos...

Thank you...Really really happy :)

Then,we went Singapore...

1st time...leaving our parents..leaving the country alone...

All by ourselves..

Remember that yesterday you tell me that i went with my cousin alone?

Actually I went with you to most places alone...

Just that you didn't realise it...

We went on separate ways...

To our own working enviroment...

To place where we only have strangers...

We start all over again...

Working from scratch...

While you are working your way up...

I seems to lost mine...

I lost the track of place and time...

Don't know what I should do...

In between times,

I lost alot of friends..

I spend alot of time and effort..

But i gain you...

Your time and effort...

You have your friends, your game and your career..

Can we still finish the journey?

I'm not sure...

Without your trust, without my confidence...

It's quite difficult..

I know.......

Now...only can see...

What time can do for us...

Found this on one of my friend's wyall...

Sometimes yousay that girls ask for so many thing..

They want this..they want that...

When she ask for A, B and then C...

You start to give A...She already waiting for C...

But when ask why she want C...

She don't know...

Maybe because waited for A and B too long..

Now at the moment...she want C...

But when you give her C, she already thinking of something else...

Girls thinks alot...that's why they change very fast..

But for sure not their heart...

For lots of thing...

they will never ask...

Just like when they keep quiet...

They are thinking...

How to say..to make you know what they want..

But not telling you what is it...

to make her happy when you know what is it...

Why don't make it easier?

Tell it out?

Coz...girls are like this..

They want to know how much you know about her..

And how much you really care..

Just like my colleague husband come over to work place...

scare its too late...it's dangerous...

scare she hungry....he brought snacks...

scare she alone....accompany her...

scare she tired...ask her to go home...

And continue silent...

To see

How much you know about me..

How much you understand..

How much you care...

How much you willing to put in effort and time...

On the other hand...

I will also try..

Just to see you smile sincerely...

- I did not play with your feelings...but i seems to have lost you half way...

I admit that i did not solve the problem well...i'm sorry for that...

Napoleon

-Hmm...who is bad and who is good now? Maybe i'm playing the bad side...

Now...you are silence....Make me scare..don't know what i should do...

When you keep responding to me...i still feel better...

When you stop messaging and calls...i'm afraid... :(

Einstein

-Yes..i have seen your achievement without me...in your career...in magic...

Maybe...this is what my decision benefits you...Maybe without me..

everything will be working better for you....

Leaving me behind...stopping at the same spot...

I wonder...What will happen to me...

Abraham Lincoln

-I'm weak in this...but I'm not strong either...

Not at any end...who am I?

I also don't know...

Maybe all this while..i'm too depending on you...

I lost the sense of direction...the sense of life...

Martin Luther King

- :) Living together is not one easy task...

It really needs patient, understanding, honesty, and other elements to live together..

Not just you like me and I like you then we can stay together happily ever after...

I know we are opposite of each other...this makes it even more difficult for us to communicate...

even on simple things....Which makes it also the biggest problem that I can't solve until now...

Can you teach me what i should do?

Mahatma Gandhi

-Forgiveness?? Don't know where i should start with...

I'm sorry for the things that i said that hurt you..

I'm sorry for the things that i did that hurt you..

I'm sorry that I decide to let go..

I'm sorry that I love you..

I'm sorry ...

Dr Abdul Kalaam

-Yes...this is very true...

It's very easy to make someone hurt...

Just say something or do something...

You can't take it anymore..

But...to win back somemone...

You need to do more than just say and do...

It takes time...effort....and sometimes it doesn't work too...

The wound will be there forever...

Hope that time can heal this wound...

And it's not too late....

Thanks for everything...

So i keep ask mum and dad to send me home.

But i don't receive any confirmation from you until now and you told me that you will come at 9pm.

I know i cannot get angry, i know i cannot say anything.

But yet..i still want to tell you that i'm not happy.

I always want to spend christmas with my family as i always told you...

But this year...i want to spend with you...

They scold me i always want to stay at home and for you to come...

But....

I don't know what i should do...

I don't feel like going out anymore...

But i want to meet you...

Can you tell me what should i do?

You tell me that you don't know why I weird weird...

Because I'm crying here...

Waiting alone....

Why am i always so stupid to think that you will care and you will do what it takes to make our relationship better?

Why I feel sad and happy at the same time?

I don't know what will happen....

I don't know how to react and respond to you...

I don't know whether is right for me to make this decision...

I don't know what to do...

I don't know....

I don't know...

I don't know..

I don't know.