Why?
Everytime i feel that i'm going to be ok..
Everything come back again... :(
I love you so much
That it hurts..
To go back to the place that we spend time together...
Today went the curve..
Not a place that we go always...
But we always go for christmas deco..
Mood so down that mum thought i'm sick :(
I keep check my hp..
For your reply..
I message you early in the morning..
Until 5.30 only i receive your reply..
Then no reply..
Till i disturb you in facebook..
Am i that annoying that you don't even want to answer me?
And..
you said that you no time..
but today you went out..
Where you went?
Ask you..
You answered..
"Haha"
I don't understand...
Really don't...
When you ask me..
I will tell you...
But when I ask you???
Is it I also should answer you that way?
Distance us even further?
Today i told myself that enough...
I really need to stop thinking about you already...
But...
I don't know...
It just keep coming back...
Why...
Why i still can't let go?
Why you don't want me anymore?
How come your 1month relationship is better than out 6 years?
I really don't know... :(
You said that you no time...
Cannot find time..
Not purposely don't want go out with me..
Hmm..
You also know that you sounds that you purposely don't want go out with me...
I know..
I'm stupid...
Whenever you try to spend time with me..
I will be 24/7 ready...
I really want to spend time with you..
But,
If you really find it that hard to spend time with me..
Maybe you can tell me..
Don't give me hope..
Then take it away...
If you really want to spend time with your friends..
or her..
You tell me k.
Of course..
I will not happy..
But that way...
I think i can heal faster...
Now...
I thought that things is getting better..
Then you start to don't reply my message and don't care me again...
I really don't understand...
Is this a type of revenge?
I know it's my fault..
And i'm sorry...
Please tell me what you want... :(
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2.21am...
Still not back yet..
And didn't reply my message...
Worried...
I need to stop worry about you...
That will probably keep my heart stronger..
:(
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2.35am..
Reached home le..
I felt like a stalker..
Keep worried this and that..
Good night..
We still discuss what time to meet up...
After...
A few minutes..
You message me and say that you need go lunch with client...
And i replied :(
You called...
But i missed it...
You say you call coz want ask me whether i got go to career fair so that i can pass the strawberries to you..
Is it?
Is this what you really thinking?
I felt...
I'm abit naive
I wake up so early..
To prepare your food...
Because you told me that we will eat mcd like last time in car...
So i thought can prepare something for you..
Always eat outside food not healthy...
But just one call...
Can ruin everything...
I know work is important..
But..
Just not happy :(
I wonder...
What you thinking..
You asked for lunch...
After whole day you didn't message me...
Then, you message me after some time..
Very very long.... one message..
I don't know..
You want what...
Can tell me?
Or you just playing with my feelings?
I tried so hard..
Not to buy anything for you today...
Every member day..
I also will think..
What event coming...
What thing spoil already..
Want buy what for you... :(
Dear...
Why you can sleep without saying good bye/Good night?
I thought you said that..
Every night also need to say before sleep?
No ma?
Tomorrow lunch...
Will how??
I'm afraid..
Today you long long only reply again...
But you mentioned that you are in meeting la..
One whole day only 3 message...
You ask me to get a job and buy iphone...
But iphone and then?
So that i can switch my phone line out ma?
I really don't know..
This morning i dreamt of you again..
It seems like...
I keep dreaming and dreaming..
The same thing over and over agian...
Can this stop??
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You back at 12.50am..
You saw me online again..
Don't know you happy ornot..
But i happy..
You come and greet me :P
Was scolded by my friend..
For contacting you..
I don't know why everyone thinks that i'm stupid..
But i just want to stay near to you :(
Internet down for past few days...
So i readjust the date accordingly...
Hmm..
*Rewrite this part again (although i don't remember what i wrote just now) :( *
I no internet...
So resort to message you...
Tried not to message you..
But end up messaging you also..
You ask me what i did...
I told you about the movie album...
The cinema tickets that i kept throughout the years..
Finally full already..
Apart of me being happy...
Apart of me being sad...
I don't know whether i can complete another book with you...
Today you asked me all the questions that shows me you are concern...
Ask hot or not..
Ask bout work...
etc...
But you went missing after 3pm...
Back again at 11-12am..
Said that you still busy work...
I didn't wait for you...
Too tired..
You ask me to sleep first...
Sorry..
didn't accompany you...
