Saw you yesterday...
After two months plus...
Hmm..
It's just weird...
Was looking at them..
Chit Chating..
Just have the urge to look back..
And there you are..
Still can sense where are you...
Dear..
Kinda miss talking to you..
Wondering what you are doing..
Tried not to look at your things..
Tried to pack up stuffs..
Yet..
I still can't managed to pack them all up...
Maybe..
I will try again this weekend..
And see where i can go from here...
Missing you..
Good Night!
Dear,
I think already very long. Whether to post this or not. I think i just hurt myself again :( i can't stand knowing that you are going far far away and not doing anything. I want to message you. But i' m afraid. Scare no reply from you. I don't know. I thought this is the easiest way out. But still i'm stuck here thinking. It's getting better. Less dream. Less thinking. It that cause i'm really starting to let go or i just don't have the time to think? Coz when i slow down the pace. Everything seems to come back to me again... Or when someone asked me bout you... What you are doing... Where you have been... Etc...
Why we have friends in common that still thinks we are a couple even your profile display picture shows that i'm no longer te girl beside you? The one that shares your hapliness, your thoughts, your laughter, your sadness, your workload,and many others....
Back to the days when we were there listening to each othr... Missing you so much... Just... Maybe i felt jealousy.... Still want to be there for you just like how i used to be... But no longer can...
Missing you... Safe journey and good luck dear.. :)
I showed sister this picture which reflects of what our situation are right now...
But i broke two people hurt for posting this to her as she posted it to make alert to others....
I'm not sure whether i did the right thing ornot..
But now...
They seems hurt...
What should i do?
It's just so true...
Take care..
Good night....
Today mark 7th years when everything started...
Is it still counted?
I still want to cont it that way..
Don't know whether seven is really a jinx number or what...
But it really happened to us...
I still will think of you..
I still will miss you..
And course I still love you...
But I guess..
I love you in a different way now...
That i know i can't be near you...
That i know someone replaced me...
To take care of you....
For the past 6 years..
We have spent tonight together..
Having dinner..
Spending time together..
With the same t-shirt...
Or anniversary shirt...
Watch movie or go genting highland....
It's all like just happened...
But..
Back to reality..
You have left...
For almost 10 months now...
Had dinner with your mum and sister just now instead of you...
Without you by my side...
It's just lonely..
I have a different life...
A more challenging one...
One that i can't depend on anyone..
But on myself...
To stand up again...
Lucky that...
I still have KayCie with me...
I hope that everything will go on smoothly for you...
Loving you always :)
