This is so true...
Just like what i have been thinking lately..
About money...
Why i always ask you to buy this and that for me?
I want to know whether you can support me in the future or not..
Not that i really need you to buy for me now..
But i need someone that can support my life and my family...
Can provide me with a comfortable life...
I saw how difficult for my parents to work and take care of my family..
Even now..I still need to help out..
I don't want this problem to be another problem...
But...no one seems to understand...
Haha...i think these are really true...Something to think on...
Sometimes they are impatient...
sometimes they want to be the judge..
Sometimes they are emotional
sometimes they are immature...
But for what they will show this temper...
and to whom they will show this??
Only to the person...
That they seek love and care...
The person that they treasure and appreciate...
:)
I was there that moment...and we didn't bump into each other..
Maybe we really don't have the connections..
You always don't like to go the mines for shopping..
Saw Winnie tag you with the planeswalker picture..
Your eyes looks so tired...
Must rest more...
Don't late late sleep k...
Don't keep work work work..
Must take some time off...
Not sure what is it..
But surely u did win something in work...
A step up again..
Glad that you make it better in career..
Seeing you growing up day by day makes me happy..
You use to be the person that blur blur don't know what to do..
And now you are in the team...
Leading and being lead...
Hope that everything will go on smoothly for u... ;)
I don't know...whether i should try again or not??
What Should i do??
Is this for real?
Is this what i have been trying to deny all this while?
But...
I don't know..
Whether this is real...
I don't know whether this is the correct decision...
I don't know..
What i should do...
I really don't.... :(
Talked to jeehou today...
Not really talk...
Msged him regarding lai kuan's air condition and i want to know how you are doing...
So i asked him..whether he heard anything from you..
he say he know and you need time...
I ask him to take care of you...
I hope he will...
I can't take care of you...
You must careful...
Don't always fall sick...
Don't work so late...
When not well need to see doctor...
Tired need to rest...
Stay up late night not good a....
" I still can't sleep o. I really have been very sad these few days. Dear, really can we try one more time ma? I really miss u very much :( "
Everytime i receive messages like this...
I very tempted to say yes...
We try again..
But i'm afraid...
I scared that we can't make it...
And i will hurt you again..
I scare that i will drag this one for few more years..
And i repeat the same thing again...
I'm sorry...I really need to stand strong :(
" I duno. just find things do lo. Keep thinking about u ma. Sad Sad lo but can't do anything. "
There's actually alot thing that you can do...
But you still haven't tried yet...
But you still haven't tried yet...
Everytime when i say the few words to you..
You will only message and call..
Have you think of coming to meet me and talk about it?
Maybe try to persuade me?
Maybe is good that way..because i know i will give in if you come...
Thanks for being there for me...
I'm sorry that i make you sad..
I hope that this will make a better future for you and me...
Sometimes I feel this way...
don't know whether you realise it or not...
When you need me...
When you think of me...
Then you will find me...
When you are busy...
when you have friends...
When you are working...
When you play magic...
You tend to forget about me...
Maybe...this is only from my point of view....
maybe you can tell me..
That's not what you have been thinking..
"Life feels so empty without u. Last time still know got u waiting for me do i will try faster finish. Now no more d, feel sad :( missing u lor"
No matter how fast you try to finish your work..
You still stays up late for it..
I know its your work and i can't stop you from working..
You are guy..you need to earn for living..
But...when you go play..you also stay till late late..
Not that i don't let you go play...
just that you know how to say i wait for you...
you should know when to play when to rest..
Also, sometimes i feel not happy...
I want you by my side..
But you rather go play magic..
spend time till late night there..
but can't come my place..
because what?
your dad scold..petrol etc...
All this worth more than me?
sometimes i really wonder...
Is magic really so important to you??
I don't know whether what i do is right?
I got no one to turn to..
No one to talk about..
Should i? Should i not?
What will happen if i continue on?
What will happen if i stand strong?
I really don't know..
I cannot make up my mind..
Can someone please help me through?
You guys always say he not good..
I know he is not perfect..
I know he has flaws...
But...
I always want to give a second chance..
And i know this second chance...
Cost alot...
Maybe years...maybe more tears and heart break...
But alot will have happiness...
Can you please don't make me sad?
Can you please make thing work for us?
Can you please....
"Dear you sleep d ma? how was ur day?"
"Dear I cannot sleep :( These few days also cannot sleep. "
Hmm...Sorry..make you cannot sleep this few days..
Everytime you message me also very late d..
around 1-3am... I fall asleep already...
Think think...sleepPublish Post already...
I know it is hard for you...
just like how it is hard for me to accept that i will be far away from you...
being friends that are like strangers...
But i don't want to continue hurting myself and you...
Staying in a not happy relationship...
I really want us to be happy :)
"Hi dear. U sleep d ma? i just only done. Now try to sleep. These few nights also didn't sleep much. Miss u alot. U rest la k. Good nite. Sweet dreams"
"Presentation very good a. Boss puji me :) "
This seems to be a good start for you...
Boss compliment you...
Happy for you..
Keep up the good work and don't think so much..
I will see what i can do on my side..
Hope i can stand strong also...
"U asked me y i comb my hair this way when i met u last week at ur aunty place. I told u that it's for fun. But actually i am trying not to make my hair spike and instead try not to put wax anymore. Bcos u told me that u like it if i don't put wax. I noe it's abit late for me to change. I just want to say that changing a habit is not impossible. It just need time. And i will only do it for the one person that i love. Which is you. Good nite. Sweet dreams. I will Keep loving you forever. Remember that."
Thanks for that. I love you too. Like i told you.
This friends thing is not because i don't love you anymore.
I'm not stone. I do have feelings.
For the pass 6 years, i have put in feelings, time and effort...
I really really hope that we can work out..
Everytime i think about us...
Our story..what we can tell people..
But when i think about future..
I'm afraid..because i know i need someone stronger..
that can support me...my family...and our family...
You told me the other day that you can't support a family alone..
You need help...Our direction is different...
Maybe our thinking is different...
I want to change this..
For these few years, i tried..but i can't...
I always want to make you happy..ended up making you angry....
I don't know why we are always opposite... ;(
I'm not fine...I didn't go out on weekends..
My dad keep ask me why didn't go out..
When i go out, he keep scold why i go out...
So weird...
I cannot sam yuen...
Sorry...
I want us to know what we really want and what we can achieve...
I want to know that i not what they say and you also not what they say..
Please show them that you are who you are...
Not the one that they say is useless...
ok?
"Dear u sleep d ma? Wan talk ma? I just do ok work. Now wan try sleep. Cannot sleep o. Coz sad sad. Yst nite sleep at 5. CAll me b ok if u can talk. If you sleep d then nvm lu. "
If you really really want to talk with me, maybe you can give me several calls..
I will return your calls or maybe wake up and answer it.. You need to persuade me to think that we still can make a difference. We still can work to make this better.. :)
Everytime i go for wedding dinner, i also will think what type of wedding i want.
How it would be?
What i will wear?
What you will wear?
What will happen?
ETC...
But...sometimes i also will think...
Will my dreams come true?
Will i really have my "happily ever after" dream?
I know you can't give me everything that i want and i demand too much...
Sometimes i think i need someone that can fulfill all this things...
Maybe there is this person..maybe not..
Maybe i think too much...
Maybe i ask too much...
But i really want someone that is really there for me and my family...
I always want to tell you this...
I really wish that we can end our story together with our kids...
Alot people get married today and today is the first day we be friends again
I don't know whether this is a correct decision or not.
I know I not happy and I know this is not what i want.
But I still make the decision because I don't want to bluff you.
I don't want to pretend happy and inside I not happy.
I know this is hard for you.
But it's even harder for me to not responding to your messages or calls.
I try to hold myself from answering...yet i still answer after a few calls...
Why??
Because I still love you...
Like I told you so....
"I'm sorry I m not perfect. I may not be your prince in story tale but I am sure that my hearts only belongs to u"
Thanks :) Really Appreciate it..
"My guitar was not just laying in the corner. I practice our (new) song every week so that one day I can surprise u and play it for u. I didn't tell u this bcos it's a surprise. I ... I realy put his relationship very very close to my heart."
I hope..one day i can hear this song..
If i still have the chance...
"Missing u alot :("
"Dear. Plz don't give up on us yet. The future isn't just one night. I can make the wrong right. Don't give up on us yet because I know we can still come through. I have been thinking whole night an I nearly lost my mind last night. I am willing and am happy to give up every other things just for us. Sincerely. Really..."
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edited 26 dec 2011
where have this went? just after a month plus...
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Isn't it better for us to have more in common?
Then we don't have to zhau each other so much..
Coz we will be doing the things that we like together..
I know it is hard...To stop thinking about us and the future..
But i want you to know that we are not as simple as 123..
We really really need to know each other very well...
And make sure that we can sacrifice that much for each other to make it to the next level...
And with us, its much more difficult...because we are different..
The way we think..
The things that we like..
The activities that we do..
The friends that we mix with...
And many others...
Think think...
Whether we really suitable for each other?
